The Point? Its the Pointe.

I dance. Its the thing I absolutley love to do. Why? Because I love expressing myself. In anyway, but its fun to express myself through movement to music. I also love it because its taking little movements and techniques to make up a whole dance move. I just find it fascinating.
I have done all types of dance, or just about. Jazz, ballet, lyrical, tap, musical theater, hip-hop, modern. But the one I have stuck to the most is ballet. So my studio is now working on Cinderella. Usually we do Nutcracker, but this year we are doing something different. I am the spring fairy. The four season fairies actually dance and are on stage more than Cinderella. Weird right? Yes.
As fun as it is, its really really hard work. I don't know how I'm going to do it...but I guess I have no choice.
And that got me wondering...why do I do so much for ballet? Its not like I'm plannin gon being a prima ballerina. I'm not thin enough, tall enough, flexible enough, don't jump high enough. Just all around not good enough.
And I'm fine with that, I have always known it. If I had plans to become serious about ballet, I would have to be in a boarding school, dancing 6 hours a day. I wouldn't have time for my friends or family. And those things are way more important in my book.

So since I'm not gonna be a pro, why do I spend so much time on this? It takes time away from my school work and friends. I get tired of it real easy. I was starting to consider doing a lot less of it.

But then this past week, the classes where fun, and I realized that its not always going to be fun. But when I'm on stage I enjoy it so much. Or even when I'm just in the studio dancing. Or even in my room when I'm practicing and makeing stuff up. I just love it, there is no doubt. So why quit something I love? Even if it takes up my time. Even if it gives me injuries. Even if it gets boring. Even if I'm not going to get big someday. I'll still do it because I would like to go some where with it someday...who knows where or how...but I love it too much to stop. I love music, and dancing to it, anytime.

Food Fight

So, last night I was at my friends older sister's house. It was a small group of us friends. Me, Katie, Alix, Rachel, Steven, Hunter, and Drew. Hunter and Katie's sister Gina wanted us all to come over for some food, to watch a movie and some games she had planned.
It was all going well, we where chilling out and calm. And then the boys plan this evil plan to get an egg, and smash it on one of us girls heads.
Not cool.

So Hunter had his arm wrapped around Rachel, and he was about to smash the egg on her head without her knowing, but I saw the egg and lunged for it...but I got held back by Steven.

Thats where it all started.
Everyone started trying to get back at eachother. Someone tried to smash an egg on my head, but instead it got smashed on theirs (Drew hehe). Then wet pasta was being thrown everywhere, and then pudding, and eggs (which hurt) and even cupcakes and later silly string.

I hate to say that I was the one and only to get a frosted cupcake smashed into my face.
I had always wondered how in movies when they had messy parts like these, how when someone got a bunch of junky food in their eyes, how it didn't sting? Well thanks Hunter, now I know it doesn't if you don't open your eyes too much.

Drew was the messiest, covered in egg, tons of pudding, silly string and pasta and wet grass. Then Hunter. I came in third, for having frosting all in my hair and nose pudding on my face, and egg on my back.

It was crazy, and people where sometimes angry, but all around it was loads of fun. It wasn't even planned, which made it so much cooler.
I had wished that could have had my camera to take pictures of everyone all gross and messy...but then I realized that having my precious camera around such action would only have led to it being part of the mess. So I am glad I did not bring it.

:]

Shocked

Yesterday after school, I found out that my dad's oldest brother (my uncle) died.
He had cancer, but it was more that treatment that killed him.
It hurts and is sad, we where hoping to see him at christmas. But I guess it was his time to go. And now he is not suffering. He had a good life. He traveled a lot, and did many things. I know he is in a better place.

But I feel for my cousins. They are young adults, but now have no parents. Their mom died a couple years ago of cancer too.
The funeral is coming up soon, and almost my dad's entire family is going to be there. He has a big family, 4 older brothers...it was the oldest that died.
One thing that makes me sad, is that it takes a death to bring our family together at once. Not even christmas brings everyone together. They are busy and have their own lives. I understand that. It is nice to know though, that God is in control, and always is.

Me and my brother

Today me and my brother had a huge fight...not a suprise, but still dissapointing.
And it was about something stupid, like always, and we just ended up hurting eachother. I try to not let words hurt me, but words are one of the most powerful things. It doesn't matter if they are kind or mean words...they still affect me in some way.

After me and my younger brother had some time to calm down, apart from eachother, we got together and started talking. We covered a bunch of topics, but there was one that we talked about the most.
That was God. We talked about how we as christians are supposed to show Christ's love, even when we are angry, which is something we had not just done.
We even read a bible passage and read some questions that are in the study bible...it was nice.
Me and my brother do have talks like this once in a while...but not usually after an argument.
I just thought it was amazing me and my brother where able to have a nice talk about God and how to act...after us nearly breaking out into world war 3.
But then I figured we probably never would have talked about that stuff adn read that passage had we not had a huge fight...

God works in strange ways sometimes, :]

cold weather

I am sooooooo happy that fall is here and winter is coming! I love all seasons, but I also love the changing of the seasons.
But something about fall/winter just makes me extreamly happy. I guess it has something to do with thanksgiving and christmas...
and maybe my birthday :]
I also just love the things that come along with it...like snow, hot chocolate, warm hoodies, nice coats, boots, and scarfs, hats and gloves, christmas music. The whole thing.
But...there is one thing I sort of forgot.
ok, not really "forgot", but hadn't really thought about. I love winter, as you can tell.
I was so excited for it...and still am...but.

Ok, well you know that saying? From spiderman I think. "With great power comes great responsibility."

Well, that saying doesn't have much to do with this...but it makes me realize this, the obvious.

With winter, comes cold.

Ya, something I wasn't too ready for. Like now, I am FREEZING!

I guess next time I should maybe realize the obvious.

Kindness in a grocery store

One time my mom was standing in the grocery store line. There was a man infront of her, and a woman at the register in front of him. The woman go out her wallet to pay for her few items, and realized she didn't have the money. She said.
"Oh dang it. I'm sorry, it seems i forgot my money at home. Oh, I guess I'll just come get this stuff later." My mom said seh seemed clearly upset, and was getting ready to leave empty handed, when the guy behind her said. "Don't worry about it, here, I have some money."
He started to get out his wallet to pay for her items. The woman was shocked and tried to stop him by saying things like "No, no you shouldn't do such a thing. Its not for you to pay for. Please, you don't need to. Its fine..."

But the man just handed the person working at the register the money and said "This is for this woman's food." And it was paid for.
The woman stared at the man for a minute, then asked "How can I repay you? I must. That was so nice of you to do that sir. Thank you. What can I get you?"
The man just looked at her, smiled, and said.
"Just do something nice for someone else."

My mom came home so excited and suprised by that. I'm glad she got to see it. Its nice to know that people still pull random acts of kindness. She said it was almost like hope.

Even those small things, can really make someone's day better :)

Divine Romance

There is this music artist, Phil Wickham, who I have fallen in love with...or at least his music :)

One of his songs that has touched me the most, is "Divine Romance". The lyrics in this song really hit me. This part is so true:
"Your innocent blood, has washed my guilty life"

And another part I really like, is in the chorus.
"I life my heart, and my hands, to show my love."

Those words just really make me think how we are supposed to show God we love Him all the time. One time at a youth rally concert type thing, we where singing praise music and praying. It was really amazing music. Lots of people had their hands in the air and where just singing their haert out...but then there where people I saw around the area, that had their cell phones out, or where talking to others, laughing...
I'm not trying to condem or anything, but it just made me think back to what someone told me years ago.
"Why is it people can't even give a few minutes of their time to praise God? Why can't they just leave this world out of their heads for a minute to priase Jesus?"

So this song, just made me think of these things. How we should show love to God all the time, in praise, or our actions, in the things we say.

It makes me happy to see people, like Phil Wickham, use their gifts for God's glory.
:)

chocolate

I have this problem where I tend to take comfort in food...mainly chocolate. The time of halloween is the worst, because my mom buys all this candy for trick-or-treaters...but most of it is eaten by me before the night comes...it makes me think of that saying "taking candy from a baby..."

ok, maybe not.

But I feel as if chocolate sometimes just makes my day better. Did you know that it is scientifically proven that chocolate gives you a happy feeling that lasts pretty long...I'm not sure how long, just that it does...

But, if I keep eating all the chocolate that I eat, then I will become overweight, have diabetes, and probably get other problems.
But eating all this chocolate IS giving me some calcium, and lowers blood pressure and helps the heart!

That just makes me laugh :)

Mr. Camp

Jack Henry Camp was an amzing teacher. Everyone loved him. He died almost two years ago, but every now and then, it still hurts.

Example: the other day, I was going through my 8th grade year book. In the back of my yearbook students and teachers had signed notes to me, one of them was Mr. Camp.

He wrote how he loved assisting me in study hall nad helping me with homework, and how he thougth I was smart and sweet...and how he couldn't wait to be my teacher for my sophmore english class..

I started crying right then, just thinking how he didn't live long enough to do so.